To you,
i woke up at 3 in the morning,
staring nowhere and everywhere at once,
my mind says “i don’t want to be here”
“i don’t want to be here”
my mind doesn’t want to be in the chaos you put it into,
my mind doesn’t want to be in the mess you created after you left,
my mind doesn’t want to be in your thoughts anymore.
“wild hearts don’t break, they burn”
my heart burns,
with every ounce of blood flowing; i feel it burning.
i feel every vein in my body burning with rage.
the rage for you that was once love.
“the rage that was once love”
with all that rage burning in my body,
i wanted to scream,
it froze.
i tried to get up.
i couldn’t.
i felt as if you were right there,
right there beside me holding onto me.
i lied there,
oblivious to everything.
the alarm rings,
it’s 6 a.m.,
my eyes open,
fear takes place the void of my heart,
sound of alarm fills the void around me.
with every time my heart beats,
my mind mutters,
“i am scared”.
-A.
avni jain 