I have always tried to escape you. Maybe I’ll always have a fear of you because pf the people who left at the sunset knowing you were my weakness. I am afraid of you because of the feelings you allow me to feel. The feelings that get lost admist the sun rays during the day.
The stars too get lost admist the sun rays as my feelings and you make me meet them. With you I feel too much as if I am a universe of exploding stars. I’ve written poems while being lost in you and on you.
“What scares you the most?” The night scares me.
For I let myself face the cruelty within me once again.
The monsters under my bed, never scared me
But the thoughts inside my head.
I am the most raw form of me at night-
The true versions of me,
Anxious, Scared and Weak. I had always feared being one of those
But ended up being it and then constantly hating myself for being me. “Crying is for the weak.” I was told,
I want to show myself brave and bold
So, I’ll hide my tears from everyone,
I can’t let anyone see my tears, I don’t want to be mistaken as weak.
So, find another corner in night.
Cry till I become numb
Then I think maybe tommorow will be better. I will have a new morning but also a new night.